To Helen

I realise other people can read this but I jsut wanted to say that I am so proud of you in the way you are dealing with all this. Im so grateful to know such a amazing person and even more blessed that I can say your my best friend. YOu have come so far and will continue to brighten up every room (and life) you walk into. xxxxxxxxxxxx

Tesco

So I felt it was important to tell everyone just how my new found friends (ST ives lot) are corrupting me and getting me to do very silly things!!!!!

so we went to Tesco's due to Macdonalds being shut (whats up with that) and the fact that frankie and bennies where closing so we had to leave as the menacing looks we were getting from the kitchen staff could have started a war.

So 24 hour tesco's it was.

I decided to sit on Petes bonnet (just messing around) and he started driving. He took the bend to sharp and I went flying. I mean like 6 foot flying in distance. I landed pretty smoothly on my butt but it was funny as anything. I ruined my shoe's as in the whole of the sole of my boots was attached by a thread. (walking was interesting) After my little adventure of being thrown from a car (was my fault but was well worth the pain for hilarious reasons) we decided to leave the carpark and actually go into tesco. me sitting in the middle of the road im sure wouldn't draw to much attention to us.

I realised how much of a godism it was the fact I changed my shoes over last minute. If I had been in my converses I would of snapped my ankle. (thank you God) I literally went home and swapped them over very last minute.

After that Kieran decided to swing of the beams in Tesco roof which was amusing in itself as me (being the evinqualent size of a hobbit) could barely reach them.

Kieran then got a trolley like vehicle (was something they stack food with but with wheels) and pushed me around in it. At this point we got kicked out and our adventures at Tesco came to an end.

The following Night after going to the cinema with my parents to go and see Australia (which I am in Love with. Hugh Jackman can teach me to run a cattle ranch anyday) I went back. here I was hoping to be banned or have my picture on a DO NOT SERVE sign. The security guard didn't even recognise me. how is that for modern security against vandals???????????

Boredom

Being a christian can you ever be bored of life? I mean can you ever get fed up of living each day the same way. I wouldnt mind an adventure now and again. I spent so long asking for free time and now I have it I have no idea what to do with it. I spent so long asking for it and now Im complaining because I cant think of anything I want to do. typical isnt it!!!

I love my life and I love God but I just wonder having free time is interesting isnt it. I mean what we end up doing in it. I paint or draw or chill out with God. Some people watch TV or sleep

Something else I was thinking about earlier was how things change. I cant believe it was a year ago (roughly) when I was still at carphone and everything was so different. I love how everyday brings new opportunitys and a new chance to start afreash. Gods smart like that isnt he.

Oh really dumb here but in a world where success is rewarded down to sports, or intelligence. its pretty cool to think that GOd made both of those things. he made sports and all the knowledge that is possible. He is the smartest. Whats master mind to him? lol

Can anyone tell Im bored out of mind.

I have decided to drop out of the art competition im in. I dont really want it and Im stopping people who have amazing talent from reaching there dreams. It doesnt really seem fair especially when I am not really that bothered by it. I dunno its just something i have been thinking about viewpoints would be good!!!

Im home

Yes, Since Tuesday I have been in Bristol with Helen and various other amazing people (bfg and olive)

It was amazing I drove down really early on Wednesday morning I left my house at quarter to 7 (yes even I was surprised at that) I got there at about half 12 (traffic was insane)

We then went to lunch in Bath with some uni friends of hers, which was really cool actually. I really liked bath it was very pretty. Although it appeared that Carphone Warehouse seemed to be stalking me. We then went shopping where I brought a very very cool hat. then I went to get a burger with Bfg and olive we went to see the day the earth stood still (really isnt worth the money rubbish film) but i had such a giggle me and helen then stayed up late giggling and talking about all sorts of girly things (hands)

on the thursday we went shopping again but generally mopped about we then went to the youth club that helen runs and then to the pub (after some very very funny parking) and Asda (honestly I never knew food shopping could be such a giggle) then we went home to watch empire records!!!!! If you have never seen this film WATCH IT.

ITs amazing and in the words of Lucas - Who knows where thoughts come from? They just appear.

at not to forget the classic from gina - Attention Rex Manning fans, to your left you will notice a shoplifter being chased by night manager, Lucas. This young man will be caught, deep fried in a vat of hot oil and served to our first hundred customers. Just another tasty treat from the gang at Empire Records.


honestly watch it!!!!

God is just plain cool

So I felt the dire need to put this on here to express just how completely and utterly amazing God is...



I had two uni assignments due in. first I should state the fact that I handed in two very unfinished uni assignments but I cant really do anything about that now so no point worrying about it.



So It takes proberly 40 - 50 minutes to get to Cambridge and then another 10 to get to my uni. Deadline was at 5 If you dont hand it in by then Im kicked out. I left my house at Quarter past four so i was pushing it I got to my uni at 10 to five (first miracle) Managed to stand in a que for like 8 minutes filled in all the paper work and got to the desk, I handed my portfolio piece over. The Lady told me that they didnt accept that here. I was like "what, I have two minutes, where the hell do you hand it in" (sorry to that poor lady and to God for losing my temper)

Turns out The hand in for anything bigger than A3 is on the other side of campus. so I ran with my uni bag full of folders. my A3 folder at full pelt. diving over bins and fences doing staires at liek 4 at a time any way I got there and the place was closed. It shuts at 3.30 so I slid down the door with my head in my hands. that was it uni over!!!

It was my own stupid fault I shouldnt have hung out with Rob the other day. How was I going to explain to my parents. I thought I would react differently I mean Im doing it really without lying to myself for my parents and my family so I had let them down again. I wasnt crying but i knew the second I got back to rupert I would be. The moment I saw how disappointed my parents would be I would be bawling again. I decided I better go home and cook dinner (put them in a good mood before I have to explain yet again why I am a screw up) I asked God for help. just for help. and I stood up

As I got to my feet a lady started walking down the staires. Turns out she worked there. she logged my report in. the second I asked God for help. help came!!!!!!!!!! and my portfolio was logged in and therefore I continue at university for another 3 terms!!!!

Gods amazing as if that wasnt enough of an amazing, miraculous day. when I got back to my Car park I had lost my Ticket (which means I would have to pay at time of entry and I hadn't even been there an hour) I really did care after what god did for me I walked up to the man and exlained. He gave me a free one!!!!! Free parking!!!!! God is unbelievable!!!!! needless to say I am still head over heels in love with Jesus

I love them

I forgot to add in my last post a huge Thank you to everyone for being my friends and family. God has blessed me amazingly and Im so gratful to have you as part of my life. From The Sares, The sheffords, Abe, Luke, Youth, Mark, CPW crowd, School friends, GBC friends, SNEC crew, and the lot from St Ives. just thank you for making my life so wonderful. I love you all and life would not be as much fun if you werent here.

Its the 5th

Hopefully Im not going to be so lame as I was in my last blog and not just give a list of things I have been getting up too. this one is huge and personal. well i suppose its meant to be its a blog.


I became a church member today. Church had a different atmosphere. maybe its my new attitute or perception. It was nice. I have been so caught up in seeing all the bad points of church and trying to change them. I passed over all the good. (if that makes any sense) Im proud to be part of GBC. Yes, I know I had to read over those words twice too.


There is alot we need to change there but a lot I hope we don't. I have met some of the most amazing people and been given the greatest blessings because of that place and I take it for Granted way to much. If anyone is reading this and all my Negetivity hurt you in any way Im really sorry. I love it really.


I ended up staying up until 4am the other day just because I had a bit of a Godism and ended up writing 4 sermons. I saved them all but hopefully one day I may be able to give them. maybe when I get some time I will put them on here.

Adrian was good today. He talked about letting go of the past and looking into the future and looking at Gods promise. I realised that a lot of the stuff he was saying though I had done over the last couple of weeks.

The car journey back from my holiday (again something i should write up about) gave me lots of revelations. I decided to drop superRachel the Rachel I wanted to be and the Rachel I thought every one wanted me to be. Insteed of trying to be uber clever and uber knowledgable about football or pretty or tough or organized or who has everything sorted out. That isn't me and trying to be that person is disrespecting God and the person who God wanted me to be. Im going to be me and try and be the best version of myself for God I guess. I don't want to change. Im stupid, Quirky, Insecure, Scared of everything (but wont admitt it) and Insanely passionate about God and People. I want to see 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000 of people come to christ.

For the first time in my life I feel like im getting to grips with who I am. which is werid as I don't like it all but yet Im gaining more confidence as slowly God is ironing out my issues. Like the stuff when I was growing up Im dealing with it. I may fall back a little bit, but Im not worthless and I do deserve to be loved (my Family are Awesome we just had our issues)

I even like a Boy (I wont say who cos I know it wont work out) which is a huge thing for me. I sort of run away from all these emotions as fast as I can just because its scary and new and possibly the worst but best thing ever. Im a bit gutted though if im honest because I do really like him and Im pretty sure the feelings aren't mutual. Its ok though Im used to being alone like that (check out how depressed I sound)

God is Awesome at the moment.

I even had a family meal the other day and didnt need to hold my toungue not even once (again Miracle) I have no idea what God is doing but I love him for it.

Kieran, Luke and various other people aren't around next week, which is strange as they have been the people i have been hanging out with alot recently. Its ok though. I have a feeling I will be bored and missing them a lot. I rekon It will be great to spend some time seriously getting into Gods Bible and actually doing some art not because i have too but because I feel like it. Life is going well.

(that is of course as long as I get these Essays in)

So its 2009

I never really understood the point of New Year. Its a good excuse for a party, but we don't celebrate when a new month starts do we? I just dont really see the point in celebrating it. Then again I am quite a Scrooge concerning things like that.

I have had an awesome two days. if the new year continues like this then I will be very very happy. first on the 31st I had a meal at Prima with lots and lots of cool people who I really should stay in touch with better. Then I ran away to Rio's New Years Party which was Awesome, had a great time (bar the Kareoke) was a great giggle.

The day was then spent running around after small children (and Helen and Joshy) in a woods the pictures are on Facebook.

We were thinking of a roadtrip to Great Yarmoth as I have never been but decided it was better to do wood walking instead as everything woudl have been closed.

I had the Insane realisation the other day that my Youth are going to be in Sixth form in September (well some of them) thats Insane!!!!! We are officially getting old I feel like I should be starting a Pension or something. Rosie is 13 what on earth is the world coming too.

There is a song by ABBA i think (can not believe Im such a loser that I am talking about ABBA on my first Blog Sorry guys) called slipping through my fingers that i feel needs to be listened too right now.

After that I had a God Time and some Art Time. Today I went Shopping with Mr Rob and had so much fun. the Car Journey in itself was momentous. We got some very funny looks while looking for a car park spot in Milton Keynes. Now Im off to his house to give him back his MGMT Cd and watch Michael Mcintire.

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